Life In a Notebook

Hi,a very late new year greetings from yours truly .
With a heart full of gratitude I would love to announce that , it’s been a year since I’ve written my first blog! Look how far we’ve come family!
I remember how ecstatic and anxious I was about the criticism I’ll be getting about the things I’ll write ( the criticism was both positive and negative), but the thing I’m most grateful about is the love I’ve gotten not only from the people I knew, but also from the unknown. I not only made friends through my blog, but gained a whole new family ( all across the globe , touchwood)
I remember how fast my heart was pounding when I got the  first like on my blog. The community I am now a part of, i wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world.
Yes, I was inconsistent, inconsistent when I was having a hard time, when I used to feel paranoid and when I procrastinated every single work .I felt guilty , but later realised that it wouldn’t be fair , not only to me but also to you guys if I write about being positive and active every single day even though in real life I’m the one who is feeling the exact opposite.
The year that I’ve had , was one hell of a rollercoaster. So was the year before that and the year before that. Every new year i have hope in my heart that the new year will bring me joy. It does, but then somehow it also brings such unexpected turns that keeps me wondering.
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There were days when my head was full of ideas , and there were days when I would just simply stare at the wall.
There were days when I questioned my ability, and there were days when I was astounded to see how I pushed my limits.
There were days when I was in loss of words and hope, and there were days when i held really tightly on hope.
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Whatever I’ve written till now has been with complete honesty and no filter , and hence I’ve no hesitation to admit that I haven’t really had a really good start to this year and the thoughts that are currently popping in my head are making things even more difficult for me.
I think a lot of you might be in the same position, my heart goes out to you. Well, I’m currently not the best person to give you any advice regarding this, but the only thing I’m doing ( trying my best) is to just let go.
Everything is not in our hands, let’s just focus on doing our part and that’s it. We’ll figure it all out, one day at a time and later, everything will eventually fall into place. I hope this phase ends for us soon.
We’ll get through this , together!
If the only thing you’ve done for a while is to exist and takecare of yourself, I’m so proud of you. I’m proud of you every single day. You matter and you are much more than what you are going through.
I hope my family grows this year, manifesting success, love and happiness for each one of you. Big love.

@writeraadhyasingh