Life In a Notebook

That gut-wrenching pain in your heart seems never-ending when you are hurt, the hurt you feel when the world you had created in your mind, your own little favourite glass globe is shattered, even worse, shattered by someone who you specially asked to take care of it!
A friend, family member, or someone dear to you.
There are two types of reactions:

One, where you scream and cry. You are consoled with the promise of a new globe, which makes your pain bearable.

Second, you just let go. You don’t talk to anyone, accept your fate, try to forget it, and keep on going.

The only constant in both scenarios is pain. Even when things become fine, your heart somehow replays that incident again, you try to absorb the pain saying that it’s fine, but you know, it’s not.
And when you choose to let go, you pick up the shattered glass pieces and walk away. You do not understand what has happened, you just… walk away.

The glass globe here is your heart.

The thing I loathe about people the most is their selfishness. They do not think about anyone, they do not examine the depth of their actions, but will portray themselves as idealistic overthinkers on social media, wow.
And here, my only question is how?!

People say, “Acceptance is tough”. To say the most millennial thing to complete this, if acceptance is tough, bro try forgiving.

When you forgive someone, you release a prisoner. That prisoner is you.

You no longer think about what happened or get bothered by their presence or the things they say or do because now it’s you who is unbothered. This, my family, is called growth.

This will not happen in a day, it is a process.
A process full of ups and downs. Wait, who am I kidding? You will have more downs than ups, but in the end, it’s worth it.

While I am at it, I want to point out something I realised.

There is a difference between forgiving and forgetting. Let this sink in(Damn, my new favourite line, I’m a genius)
Forgiving might make you land in similar situations like your previous experiences again and again, but not forgetting will not.

Our mind is silly, it only remembers the good times when we’re vulnerable, and this will make living in the past very appealing. Most of the emotional decisions you take during this is legit a backstab to your self-respect and your future peace.

This time fam, take care of yourself. In the end, it is what it is.

One day, you’ll realize and will have a good laugh that you made that person or those people seem so much more than they are, they’re just as ordinary as any third person.
You will make new memories, learn new things, gain new experiences, and realize you’re all that you’ll ever need.

Your glass globe will play the most soothing tune and you will not be dependent on anyone to take care of it!

After all, if hitting a huge speed breaker wakes you up while driving, in the long run, you are not the one at loss.
This does not mean you need to take your traumas as a blessing. Absorb the pain, feel it, and release it.

Accept and forgive, but do not forget.